#i am jean

[itslemonzee]

Jean is Neil if Neil had stayed at Edgar Allen. Jean has the rage and defiance Neil wantanly displays, it's just buried deep where Riko couldn't find it. He fought when he started as a Raven, fought with all his might against Riko and his demands and all of it. But at six-fucking-teen what else could he do but submit in the end. He's a kid brought up by abusive parents who transferred him to another abuser. When you've lived your life that way you don't know anything different. You don't know there's another way, a better way. You don't know you're allowed to take up the space you choose for yourself. So you just believe what everyone says about you, because if they think it the it must be true.

But when Neil was there Jean helped him fight, helped him keep getting back up, helped him do what Jean couldn't. Helped him stand up again and again. It showed that Jean's will to survive was still there, that his defiance and strength and rage was still there.

Jean's anger and temper is going to get worse before it gets better. He'll take it out on Jeremy, on Leila and Cat and anyone else in range. All this rage he's supressed his whole life will come bubbling up to the surface as he lets his walls down. The only way he knows how to handle emotions is putting them away, as he learns that he doesn't have to do that, that it's ok to let them out and be angry, he'll start small and then the few things he let's by will open the gates for the rest of it. And he's grown up around anger and violence, so it's the only way he knows how to express feelings. He's going to hurt people. But he'll apologise. He'll go to them and make amends, and maybe at first it will be out of fear, ('contriton, coach') but eventually it'll be because he knows what it means to hurt his friends. He might even lose them for a bit of time, and if that happens he'll hate himself and think he deserves to be alone and that he doesn't deserve friends or good things and those reasons to stay alive might dwindled. But he'll be healing. And I believe no matter what Jean does or says, Jeremy will let it happen and he won't abandon him. Jeremy won't lose hope. I think Jeremy knows more about trauma and suppressed rage than he's letting on. I think he'll see that in Jean and give him leeway to be kind of a prick. Because Jeremy will know that it's a sign Jean is healing. Is allowing himself to feel emotions again.

[bisexual-yuri]

Thank you for that Catholic school post... My husband recently converted and I've been getting slammed with constant catholicism and man posts like that feel anxiety relieving.

i am fucking catholic now how is this my life haablfjdhlfdgvcxsdafsseafserwafsgerwqfrwf

[boonjur]

Just me my wife and our 300 lbs boyfriend

[mellosghosts]

in my heart this joke is in the movie, but unfortunately im afraid only we, hughjackmaniacs, would get it 🥀

[gin-juice-tonic]

remembering one of the times i was getting evaluated by a therapist to determine if i was "really trans" or not or whatever and he was like "so if you transitioned to male, how would you dress differently?"

and i was like "i.. dont know. I wouldnt?"

and he looked at me blankly and wrote something down and said "really? you wouldnt wear anything more masculine?"

and i realized i'd given the wrong answer so I just said "I would... wear... suits?"

and he smiled and wrote something else down like "ah! yes"

[paladin-n-cleric]

what are you wearing rn and is it representative of your style

[blankipur-blog]

I AM LA REVACHOLIÈRE.

I AM THE CITY.

BE VIGILANT.

I LOVE YOU.

[moncuries]

eat the sun

[hinamie]

the new jjk cafe fits have been living in my head . no thoughts except yuuji in a letterman

[thewisestdino]

[everyonesadoptivedad]

something something height difference something?

[wellnoe]

first and favorite

[id in ALT]

[yuripira4e]

does anyone else like poolverine but starts kind of tweaking when it keeps winning all the Logan ship wars now like hold on no way you think car blowjob beats his and Kurt’s numerous love confessions mixed with Catholic guilt and whiskey breath or his and storms power couple on and off for years and the right person wrong time or his and Scott’s rivals who are so similar and probably have also given each other angry car blowies I’m so confused guys

Edit: please don’t be mean to each other y’all. It’s a fun comic shipping thing. Ship what you want as long as it’s legal and have fun. And support your community

[inafieldofstarflowers]

jeremy every time he unlocks a new piece of jean’s lore in tsc:

[1001mcdxlvii]

WHAT THE FUCK!!! NORA!!! WHAT. THE. FUCK.

[yumethefrostypanda]

Simon "shoulderss" Riley